Home was really great, I spent most of my days vegging out majorly. I was really burnt from work and needed the rest. I also enjoyed watching Bay Area people bulking up on hats, scarves, and down jackets. I look at them with this thought of the coldness I endured in Anchorage. I have grown way more attached to my family than ever. Friends used to be my top priority in college, I only call my parents whenever I needed something- mostly money. I do love my family but did I really value them? I remember choosing to stay with this ex in Alaska over being there for my brother's oral maxoficial surgery which I now regret. It was a low blow, a poor decision. If me and my 23 years old self could go back in time, I would have NOT stayed in Alaska! But again, it was a nice way of reflecting on how much I've changed over time.
I am still struggling with the idea of settling down in Anchorage and the only reason is: my family. They're in the Bay Area and the commute is not too bad but somewhat exhausting. I did not understand how I did not have any problem commuting from Oakland to Baltimore back then. Maybe its just me getting older and a little uncomfortable flying for long period of time? (thanks to layovers in Seattle)
So when I went home for holidays, I found myself dreading to go back to Anchorage. I did not want to go out with my friends, instead I stayed in for New Year's Eve. I was working on an art project and felt really content that I'm home with Daddy & Brother. I really did not want to leave but when I arrived Anchorage there was a strange sense of relief. A serene feeling. I went out with my friends immediately the following day. No Family around, I felt more than welcome to see my friends I guess. Anyways- It finally snowed in Anchorage but it was like putting tons of icing on ice :(
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