Clara,
Your Junior year in High School probably will be one of your most unforgettable year. After having to endure several turn-downs/bummers with your prom dates- I wish I could tell you that your next proms at CSD would go well. However you must not live by expectations, please toss out the prom edition spreadsheet on Seventeen magazine. It's not doing you good, and stop watching MTV's Laguna Beach. Don't compare yourself to others and wishing for a relationship with any guy on the planet. Your days of cheerleading may be rough however this year is also the year you guys placed 2nd in the Clerc Classic Competition! You also scored a position as a team captain which helped you learn a lot, including admitting your mistakes. It is important to always be honest and do things that reflect to your true self. But what you have in the store is a trip to Germany where you'll meet someone cute.
He's that someone that will offer you chocolate in exchange for your name. He'll learn some ASL for you so he could talk to you. You'll have those sleepless nights in Switzerland because you spent all-night chatting with him in the hallways in order to abide the "no-other-sex member" in hotel room rule which you thought was lame. He'll try to write clearly so you could write back on the bus rides, him sitting behind you awaiting for your responses. You'll have a teary-eyed goodbye after watching him depart. But you may not know that your first out-of-town prom will be at his school's. You'll have that awkward meet-greet with his parents who do not know or understand any ASL. Let me tell you, you have wonderful interpersonal skill and by having that trait- you'll find a way to break the ice with his parents. By doing so, you will bring your scrapbook and share it with his parents. (And they enjoyed that very much, which eases the communication barriers)
You will stay at his home his and upon arrival he'll tell you "Clara, I forgot to tell you that I have a twin brother." He'll smirk as you are freaking out silently. You'll find yourself with fresh pink sheets which his mom just bought from a store because he told her that it was your favorite color. You'll wake up to prom morning, knowing that you're going with someone genuine- someone who cares about you. You'll go to a seafood-based restaurant and he'll freak out because you're allergic and that it is his last prom night- he'll make sure that no fish touches your chicken. He'll do that by checking out the kitchen constantly and with you feeling a little pink on your cheeks. Oh yes- you'll finally kiss him in the limo after the prom. After the kiss- you could feel his heart beating so hard. (Girl, I didn't know it took you that long!) You'll have another teary goodbye but you'll be confident with his next visit.
You'll talk with him endlessly on texts and after telling him a bit too much about your killer cramps. You'll wake up in the morning with a package, you'll open with curiosity. You'll realize that those are imported chocolate bars, the exact ones he offered you for a exchange of your name. You'll feel extremely loved and you'll save the bars for next three months in the fridge. You'll ban anyone in the house from eating them. You'll enjoy his visit here and you'll fly back with him to home. This time you'll be very uncertain of his and your future after leaving his home. It'll be your last time seeing him. The both of you will part your ways- him to college, you to your senior year at CSD. You'll shed tears after learning that he wants to break up with you but please do not let that take your dignity away.
Again, I'm telling you: please stop watching Laguna Beach. You'll get hooked to the show and you'll hate yourself for not having the body. You must not let social media tear you apart, grow some thick skin. You'll learn how to do that, I promise you.
But there are some interesting things on the road such as: starring as Miss Hannigan in Annie's Musical, deciding to choose Cal State Northridge and changing your mind to Gallaudet in the middle of your salutatorian speech, developing/finding your love for outdoors, visiting Alaska, meeting someone like Derrick, enduring the loss of loved ones, meeting great people, starting a blog, getting tattooed by Kim Saigh, rekindle the love for Addams Family, being crowned as the prom queen, finding yourself in Alaska, falling in love with a person and getting hurt by the same person, embracing your relationship with God a lot closer, getting an autograph from Shaun White and him answering your "is he a sexy snow-god" question, joining and departing a sorority, trying rock climbing, learning your identity as Japanese-American person, attending Warped Tour, giving longboarding a try, finding your love for metal music, working at summer camps, learning how to let go of things in life, thriving to paint more, discovering Avenged Sevenfold, seeing your prayers being answered, start snowboarding, finally understanding the difference of mind/heart, reconnect with people you weren't fond of to begin with, embracing family, getting out of an accident, enduring financial problems, understanding status/public image issues, meeting Sonia Sotomayer, working closely with the Deaf community at Gallaudet, enduring worst of worst with your acne, dancing onstage all by yourself, and most of all; you'll always have yourself to begin with.
Remember, honesty is the best policy and do things that reflect your own self. It'll be hard, long, and bumpy ride ahead but buckle up.
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